night falls over me. when it rains it pours.

im bored as hell. this fucking sucks majorly. i think ill be up most of the night playing video games or jerking off. sooooooooo much of nothing to do around here sucks man. damn it. broke. and no where to really go. pills, i do have pills. but hell there getting old. suppose to have someone drop off some coffee to me tonight. but as the stereo type goes.. cant count on em for the life of me. cant find a decent white dealer anywhere. fuckin hell. whats a guy got to do to get a decent buzz around here.. shit. or some loving for that matter.. its odd. use to be all the girls i was with were nymphos. now im with a girl and i get as often as a monk. it sucks. i wanna eat me some.. er um yea. and damn.. what a boring night. i almost feel like going for a walk or something. there is just NOTHING to do around here.. man. if i had a few bucks i might go play pool down the street. but sence that fiasco with paypal im -200$ so i wont be playing with much of anything but my self.. woohooo.. im off tomorrow and why? not like i have plans. sit around here on my ass and do nothing once again.. contend with my mother for time on the computer. witch is also getting boring. but for her and her i guess soon to be ex hubby its a place to find fast fucks. why join a web site that is looking for sex and claim your not there for sex?? who are you kidding really.. im not stupid either ya know.. you talk to all these guys like none of them know that there not special what so ever.. oh well when karma comes around i wont be on them tracks. i allready got hit by that train..

not much else to say other than IM BORED, someone euthanise me or something.. shit. maybe ill start mixing pills.. ohh yea..

wow. what an interesting chain of events its been. like one giant heart beat. a breath of life forced back into it. the shock wave still rippling outward. what a sensation. thank you for coming back. ive missed you, ive missed it.

http://s14.photobucket.com/albums/a348/isaiahthegreat/   have some pictures world.

once i am done with my dentist im gonna buy stock in the company that makes RoLo's :D little stock secret.

its late. and i hope i can dream tonight.

I havnt used this site in sometime. cause it wasnt my mail point of writing. but it might end up that way now. im not sure yet. but this is my other world a short world. hehee but a nother side of me i guess. read at your own risk. i havnt read all the past posts my self. might read somethign ya dont like. fuck it though. not gonna go edit anything out for you. got questions. i got an address.

not much in my neck of the woods... thick woods here. harder to find me. i like that seclusion sometimes. very few have been here. less paths to the sorce of the madness that is me. been spending time with my lady friend. things are still going good. she mentioned me being to attached.. however i have good reason and advocation. the kisses.. the closeness.. her touch. her smell.. id swer in the time like this ive looked for wings or a halo and cant find either. i admit my attachment is strong. but read the pervious with me being redundant. i could rant on about her. how she makes me feel. how she makes me want to treat her. really makes me want to stretch my loveable side. she is lucky to bring this side out of me.. but she is wonderful and i am lucky to be in her graces. i cross my fingers that it lasts. i thank my heavenly father for this oppertunity. to learn this lesson. to meet this woman. and be part of her life. for us both to impact each other. weather it be for months. or years. i will cherish every moment i can father. thank you.

there she is.. my beautiful princess. so impacting. so gracious. so deserving. i want to be that one.. i cant hope enough. youve needed some one right in your life. i hope im right for you in the long run.. i dont mind being your secret. its cute. the time will come when its no longer a secret to any one.

see my dear soon..